Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Temporary stoppage due to depression

I have suffered from depression for the past 5-6 years. Alas, another depression episode has come upon me. My shrink had allowed me to stop medication after doing quite well for a significant period of time. So it is time for me to go back on medication. I should be back towards normal in a few weeks (the medications take that long). For the past few day I have barely been able to stay awake, a sure depression sign for me.

Work on Path of Evil (it's almost ready for others to look at, a few more bugs and the module transitions are needed) will continue full speed once I feel better, probably in a few weeks. Since the campaign has kept me motivated and goal driven (something I struggle with under depression), be assured that it is not being abandoned. Work will continue in the meantime, but because my depression manifests itself as exhaustion and sleep I expect progress will be slow indeed. Like I said, this should just be a few weeks.


  1. Hi Kamal,

    Take your time and have a break. :) Before I was diagnosed with M.E. I thought I was suffering from depression due to extreme tiredness. One thing I can be certain of is that being tired *does* bring on episodes of depression simply because your mind and body are too weak to cope.

    I too have to take it very easy when doing anything at all, or I become tired and bring on melencholy and what seem to me episodes of depresssion. I even underwent CBT to help me cope with mental attitudes during a low period. However, the simple answer for me was to rest, as I always knew that no matter how low I was feeling that I would come out of it within a few weeks after I had rested properly.

    That's why my own project is taking much longer than many others who can finish a mod in a quarter of the time I take. ;)

    Slow plodding perseverance is what's required. Take some time out, recharge the batteries and come back to it when you feel ready. :)

    You can always drop by and keep me company on my blog in the meanwhile. :)

    All the best!


  2. As Lance said, take your time and rest well. Hope you feel better soon.

  3. Take care of yourself! People can wait for the module (which is looking awesome, by the way).

  4. Hi Kamal, I am sorry to hear that, and wish you all the best. Don't give in to it and look forward to PoE and anything else you like!